“There is nothing more rare, nor more beautiful, than a woman being unapologetically herself; comfortable in her perfect imperfection. To me, that is the true essence of beauty.” Dr. Steve Maraboli
I have been struggling with the fact that there is a huge correlation between loving yourself and loving your body. I am twenty years old and since I began my teen years, I was always uncomfortable with my weight. I wasn’t like other girls or I thought I wasn’t like other girls because of how I looked. I went through a weight loss journey when I was in junior year of high school and I lost 50 pounds. When I started senior year, I was the perfect weight. But I didn’t think so. (I’m in sophomore year of college, currently) At the time, I always thought I could be skinnier or when I ate something I would feel tremendous guilt, like I would gain a million pounds. Now that it has been a year and some change since I’ve graduated high school and I’ve gained weight (freshman 15 is real. just letting yall know) I have realized something.
Loving yourself is not based off weight, it’s a mental thing.
It’s about loving how your hair falls, how you get up in the morning, how your eyes twinkle in the moonlight. It’s about loving every single part of who you are. Loving the stretchmarks and the chub, loving every crease and crack.
It’s about knowing that you’re not perfect and that’s okay.
Now that I am at a new phase in my life, I don’t want to just lose the weight of gained. I want to find confidence in my current body at my current state, because I will never appreciate me if I don’t. I need to remind myself that I am beautiful, safe and loved. My worth is not based off what I look like, it’s based off how I feel inside. And I am on my way of knowing my true worth. This is a journey and I’m ready to take it.